omnicrafter: (watchful eyes)
Irhya Pendhula ([personal profile] omnicrafter) wrote2020-11-10 05:45 am

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"With what little I have left, I will convey to everyone my pain..."
emet_sulk: (78 we could live for an age)

[personal profile] emet_sulk 2021-11-25 03:33 am (UTC)(link)
Until I forget everything. [ He barks out a harsh laugh. ] For one night, at least. Not that a single night means much to one such as I.

[ He comes back to the table and places the bottle down with a little more force than necessary. The glasses he sets down with a little more care. ]

So again, if you wish to leave then you had best do so now.
emet_sulk: (07 weight of the world)

[personal profile] emet_sulk 2021-11-25 02:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He holds her gaze for a few seconds before dropping them to the table. His jaw clenches. Offer? What can she possibly offer in Felih's place? He has always known they would leave him someday, but he had assumed that 'someday' would be old age. Not this. ]

...Comfort.

[ The response is so quiet as to almost be unheard. He pulls out a chair and falls into it heavily, before opening the bottle to pour himself an overly large measure of wine. ]
emet_sulk: (47 moral relativism)

[personal profile] emet_sulk 2021-11-26 08:10 am (UTC)(link)
It will let me indulge in oblivion for a night.

[ His voice is tight. He doesn't push her away, but he tips the glass back and takes a long draught of wine. Half the contents are gone when he sets it down.

In the bitterest of tones, he adds: ]


Seeing as none of you wish me to die.
emet_sulk: (69 ...you have delayed the Rejoining)

[personal profile] emet_sulk 2021-11-29 04:00 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He closes his eyes, gripping the glass stem more tightly. ]

I know how brief your moments are. That does not mean I like it.

[ After all, aren't their brief lives but one factor driving him to try and restore the past? ]

...Do as you please, [ he eventually mutters sullenly. ] Only..keep me company..
emet_sulk: (48 I will bring our brethren back)

[personal profile] emet_sulk 2021-12-09 08:56 am (UTC)(link)
[ It is a mark of how depressed he is that he has no rejoinder to her sarcasm. He points a listless finger towards the closed door that hides Felih's room. A room filled to bursting with unusual plants, books, and other keepsakes. ]

Only that.
emet_sulk: (35 when it all becomes too much to bear)

[personal profile] emet_sulk 2021-12-10 04:50 pm (UTC)(link)
I will keep it the way it is...

[ This not very loud response as he downs the rest of his wine and goes to pour himself some more. The sour tang of alcohol is, sadly, familiar company. ]

Though I've no idea how much water his plants need. Perhaps I'll simply let them die...

[ His mouth turns down morosely. Yes, let them die like every other finite creature here. ]
emet_sulk: (19 now listen carefully)

[personal profile] emet_sulk 2021-12-14 02:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Surely you have other, more important things to do with your life than look after someone else's pot plants.

[ He only pauses to eye his glass before taking a long gulp. ]
emet_sulk: I knew deepest despair (46 when I looked upon our shattered star)

[personal profile] emet_sulk 2021-12-16 12:36 am (UTC)(link)
[ Just the thought of throwing out Felih's painstakingly cultivated plants has him recoiling and bolting upright. ]

No! He cultivated them for my sake, to produce less pollen...

[ Maybe it's the wine, or maybe it's the memory of making love to Felih whilst surrounded by those very blooms, because he collapses back into his chair with tears running down his cheeks and sobbing he cannot quite muffle. ]
emet_sulk: (48 I will bring our brethren back)

[personal profile] emet_sulk 2021-12-22 07:02 am (UTC)(link)
[ He waves a hand listlessly. ] Fine. Fine...

[ Wiping his face, he continues to get morosely drunk. Looks like the bottle is already almost empty. ]

Such is how it always goes. They die and I replace them with another lover... [ He trails off into humourless, self-deprecating laughter. ] What a heartless fiend I am.
emet_sulk: (49 my world will have no need for heroes)

[personal profile] emet_sulk 2021-12-23 02:49 pm (UTC)(link)
What of it?

[ He tries to shrug off her hand. ]

The sooner I don't have to think, the better. Mayhap this time it will give me the oblivion I so desperately desire.
emet_sulk: (05 then so can mine)

[personal profile] emet_sulk 2021-12-25 03:41 pm (UTC)(link)
'Twas different then: barring tragic accident, we returned to the star at a time of our choosing. There was naught to mourn - only to celebrate.

[ Until the Final Days upended everything. He resists her attempt to remove the glass from his hand, but not in a terribly stubborn way. His words are starting to slur a bit. ]

In the first place, you and he are anomalies. Neither of you are the Warrior that I know, yet...
emet_sulk: (48 I will bring our brethren back)

[personal profile] emet_sulk 2021-12-31 04:04 am (UTC)(link)
[ He slams his fist on the table. ]

What difference does it make?! Someday you will disappear too! You, Felih, even Hythlodaeus is dead! Everyone dies! Except for me, who craves death desperately enough to invite you to be the instrument of my own downfall, only for even that to be denied me!

[ He slumps forward on the table, nearly knocking over his glass, head buried in folded arms.

no more, no more, no more ]

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