[She bites her lip, then tries to gently guide his hand away from the glass. If she pushes too hard, he'll clam up, but could it be she's not pushing hard enough?]

But you wouldn't want it any less even if Felih came back. You're being self-destructive for the sake of it, because you think it's easier than facing your loss. Unfathomably. Were you this bad about it even back in Amaurot, too?

[Surely even the ancients had to deal with loss, before everything went to hell... right?]