[About then, she tugs her in for a hug, pulling Mira's face towards her shoulder.]
His trauma is not your fault, Mira. Besides... if someone has to break to save his arse, let it be me. It's likely he's going to go ahead and do it for me anyway at the next opportunity, even if that's not his justification for it. I don't... really want him to get the last word on that one, admittedly.
[A small sigh into her shirt.]
He has to help himself at this point. The trouble is making him want it. All talking seemed to do was make him even more unhinged...
[Willingly she goes but since Mira is taller than the miqo'te, she has to lean into her shoulder. The downsides of having height sometimes. But as she hears Irhya's plans, she shakes her head immediately.]
No, I can't let you do it. Not if it's for me. I know we dark knights are accustomed to pain and sacrificing is the normal matter for a Warrior of Light but I rather not have you do it because of me.
[Mira can't...she can't let her suffer like this alone. But she has to make this choice for her.]
Does it matter who or what it's for anymore? He's going to do it anyway whether I like it or not. I may as well just sever now and spare him any potentially worse fates in the process...
[The last part is muttered into the fabric of her shirt.]
It'll leave you as the last person I can actually feed from, though. I'll... try not to be too much of a burden, okay?
[The feelings remain but she's not too fond of the ascian right now. Just because he's hurting doesn't mean he has any right to drag others into it. Godsdammit all.]
You are and never will be a burden. I knew what I was getting into and I would keep on doing it, but not because of honor or some other shite. Nay, whoever says that can shove the notion up their arse.
[Like the firebird before him, he'll keep raging against the bars of his cage, unable to know peace in death nor able to live freely. The greatest kindness, in that case, is...
She makes a small noise.]
Thank you. You are one of few, granted. I'll try finding others so as not to overtax you, but I imagine I won't get much in the way of responses. What else can I do, though? If I have to drink the vials every so often, I'll suck it up and drink them, at least for a while.
[Her body slacks; more of her weight leans into Mira.]
If I have to settle for protecting him from a distance, then that's damn well what I'll do. Somebody's gotta look out for his stupid arse. He won't like it, but perhaps he never has to notice...
[It's not the Light or the Mothercrystal's blessing that gives them the greatest but their own strength. Perhaps Mira will be able to try and find hers soon. Seems like she's lost some of it while here.]
We rather keep to the shadows to protect those we love, hmm?
[With a sigh she nods and finds herself wrapping an arm around her fellow dark knight.]
I said once that if this were the case, I would take the pain. For it would make me see that I can still feel. It will hurt but I rather feel that than numb. That I could at least feel.
Numbness is only a defense mechanism. Perhaps we can endure it for so long, but eventually, we'll cease to notice it.
[A sign that she's beginning to wonder if she's afflicted by such a problem, herself. Maybe she's been holding onto it for so long that she doesn't even realize how much of her has fallen into the void...]
It is what it is, I suppose. I'm here for you, even if no one else is.
[Do any of them know how far they fall until it is far too late? When does someone realize they drown in despair and just end up succumbing to it? No one is immune to it.
Not even Warriors of Light.]
And I for you.
[But there's something else. Hesitant but nonetheless there, a small creeping feeling of warmth through their Bond. She'll be there for her.
"In your darkest day... in your blackest night...think of me."]
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His trauma is not your fault, Mira. Besides... if someone has to break to save his arse, let it be me. It's likely he's going to go ahead and do it for me anyway at the next opportunity, even if that's not his justification for it. I don't... really want him to get the last word on that one, admittedly.
[A small sigh into her shirt.]
He has to help himself at this point. The trouble is making him want it. All talking seemed to do was make him even more unhinged...
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No, I can't let you do it. Not if it's for me. I know we dark knights are accustomed to pain and sacrificing is the normal matter for a Warrior of Light but I rather not have you do it because of me.
[Mira can't...she can't let her suffer like this alone. But she has to make this choice for her.]
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[The last part is muttered into the fabric of her shirt.]
It'll leave you as the last person I can actually feed from, though. I'll... try not to be too much of a burden, okay?
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[The feelings remain but she's not too fond of the ascian right now. Just because he's hurting doesn't mean he has any right to drag others into it. Godsdammit all.]
You are and never will be a burden. I knew what I was getting into and I would keep on doing it, but not because of honor or some other shite. Nay, whoever says that can shove the notion up their arse.
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She makes a small noise.]
Thank you. You are one of few, granted. I'll try finding others so as not to overtax you, but I imagine I won't get much in the way of responses. What else can I do, though? If I have to drink the vials every so often, I'll suck it up and drink them, at least for a while.
[Her body slacks; more of her weight leans into Mira.]
If I have to settle for protecting him from a distance, then that's damn well what I'll do. Somebody's gotta look out for his stupid arse. He won't like it, but perhaps he never has to notice...
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[It's not the Light or the Mothercrystal's blessing that gives them the greatest but their own strength. Perhaps Mira will be able to try and find hers soon. Seems like she's lost some of it while here.]
We rather keep to the shadows to protect those we love, hmm?
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[She pushes her eyes into her shoulder with a mild groan.]
Suffice it to say that this sucks, though.
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I said once that if this were the case, I would take the pain. For it would make me see that I can still feel. It will hurt but I rather feel that than numb. That I could at least feel.
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[A sign that she's beginning to wonder if she's afflicted by such a problem, herself. Maybe she's been holding onto it for so long that she doesn't even realize how much of her has fallen into the void...]
It is what it is, I suppose. I'm here for you, even if no one else is.
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Not even Warriors of Light.]
And I for you.
[But there's something else. Hesitant but nonetheless there, a small creeping feeling of warmth through their Bond. She'll be there for her.
"In your darkest day... in your blackest night...think of me."]