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[omnicrafter]

"In your darkest hour, in the blackest night... think of me, and I will be with you. Always. For where else could I go? Who else could I love but you?"

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[omnicrafter]

It's stupid. I probably shouldn't tell you.

[It's the first thing she blurts out, and she has to force herself not to fall back into old habits over it. To shutter up, to lash out over problems she only exacerbates with her behavior. She doesn't look at him, finding a spot on the floor instead to stare at.]

--It's just because I'm scared I'm going to fuck up again, all right? That I'll have nothing to show for it in the end but a withered heart and some bitter memories of all the things I could've done better.

[She takes a breath, then stands up and starts pacing about the room.]

...Told you it was stupid.

[emet_sulk]

[ He folds his hands in his lap and watches her pace. He can't reassure her and tell her that he won't break her heart in some way, because he is sure he will. Their choices already tore them apart from each other once before, and many, many times more in the long centuries after. Such is the inevitable result of their conflict. ]

What do you wish me to say? Your fear is not unfounded. You know very well I can and cannot give. But I distinctly recall you advising me to try and get along with all you idiotic things so I suppose...

[ A pause. His gaze lingers on his lap. ]

I suppose I am trying to do that. And if you would pursue me as something other than a sack of meat to hump when the mood strikes, I may be open to an attempt at-- [ He straightens with a wry smile. ] Ah, friendship, that was the word I wanted.

[omnicrafter]

I said me fucking up, not you. I know your way of thinking well enough.

[Does she, though? She didn't seem to acknowledge he wanted to be treated like a person rather than a sexual object until just now...]

There was... something that happened here, around the time I first got here. I did just that, and the friends I had at the time never forgave me for it. It's why you won't find me talking to the PECS manager or spending a lot of time in there, for instance.

[She stops in front of the window, head hung a little low.]

But if you would reach across the aisle in spite of all that you already know... I can't just turn my back on that, either.

[emet_sulk]

Ah, so that's why. [ He shrugs and flaps his hand. ] Well, I heard you the first time. My counterpoint is that you have all offended me in one way or another at some point during our meetings. I find it hard to imagine a scenario where you manage to offend me so greatly as to permanently stop speaking to you. I reserve the right to brood in private should that ever happen.

[omnicrafter]

[Biting though the word choice is on its face, it's very like him, and it makes her feel better to hear. Her tail does a little twitch as she considers this.]

...Thank you. That would be a bad habit of mine that I've never really had the opportunity to sit down and address. But as long as we're only offending you a little bit, I suppose that's all right.

[A slight laugh as she says the word "offending". Gods, but he is a drama queen.]

[emet_sulk]

[ Dramatic. But it made her laugh, didn't it? He smirks and claps his hands together once. ]

Wonderful! Then if you're feeling better, perhaps I shall tell you what I would not mind trying if you do wish to bed me again.

[omnicrafter]

[A very pointed perking of her ears as she shifts her weight, attention fully captured.]

Oh? I'm listening.

[emet_sulk]

[ He hums, drawing out the moment by tapping a finger against his chin as if thinking. ]

We-ell... I wouldn't mind trying a cock ring. [ He makes an 'O' with thumb and forefinger as if it needs illustrating. ] It worked so well on the other one. I don't quite trust you enough to deprive my senses whilst we have sex however.

[omnicrafter]

You could do it to me.

[A cheerful and enthusiastic suggestion, if a bit sly.]

Let me tell you, I have a hard enough time finding people who will do that because they don't want to hurt me or some such. Though I imagine those two suggestions may have to be done separately...

Heh. You liked that buildup when you were restricted from getting off, didn't you?

[emet_sulk]

[ He hums and his smirk widens but he does not give a definitive answer. ]

Hero, I don't know what you've done to lead anyone to believe you need to be treated like glass whilst restrained and vulnerable, but I shall certainly not be giving you any mercy.