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[omnicrafter]

"In your darkest hour, in the blackest night... think of me, and I will be with you. Always. For where else could I go? Who else could I love but you?"

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[menphina]

... sounds like you've done a good on job of messing things up for yourself, lass.


[ This is a lot to take in, but at least, she's getting something of a picture now. ]

Even someone like me knows not to expect things to be as I know them in a situation like this, and I'm no Warrior of Light or anyone remotely important. Why would you even think of pushing your own experiences onto people that obviously wouldn't be the same as those on your own star?

How bad is it now? Who have you put off?

[omnicrafter]

As do I, usually. Getting stranded across a bunch of different worlds with no one to turn to for help just overwhelmed me before I had a chance to sit down and breathe and put a damn cap on it again.

...The person I let loose on in the first place was Haurchefant, so you may see the problem here from that fact alone. I've not told everyone of what's going on yet, but I'm working on it... a little at a time. The only one I've had a chance to sit down with proper is Estinien, and... well. He may be disinclined to emotional impulses like the rest of us, but perhaps you can imagine.

Haurchefant himself even said he doesn't hate me, but... I don't know. I'm torn between sucking it up and trying to mend it anyway even though it makes me vulnerable as hell, or cutting my losses and biding my time.

[menphina]

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[ So she's been in a situation like this before. Many times from the looks of it. No wonder she's messed up... if she was, too, it'd be hard for her to really treat others normally as well... ]

That'd explain why he was in tears. Among other things. All he'd ever wanted was to make his Warrior of Light happy- that was true for the one on my star, too.

Makes me wonder how you'll go about mending it. What have you done so far to rectify it?

[omnicrafter]

Like I said, I tried talking to him... and all that established is that he doesn't hate me, but that's not saying much. There's no desire there to keep humoring me, that's for sure. So I can make all the efforts I want, but if there's no one on the other end to receive them in the first place, it's all just going to fall into the void.

...Which is why I'm torn. It doesn't help that I wasn't terribly good at this to begin with, yeah? I think it's fair to say I don't really know how, other than to just try to be considerate when we do meet. I don't think seeking him out on purpose will go over that well anymore.