If it were, I'm sure I wouldn't be having this problem... alas.
[Her ears wilt, though she's still smiling thinly.]
Without that option, it's not easy finding people to trust. Someone could seem very appealing on the surface and still turn out to be a terrible partner, after all. I guess it doesn't help that in spite of lashing out like an aggrieved idiot, I'm still kinda-sorta in love with him, I guess...
[Attempting to soften the description of what it actually is. There are lots of people she loves, and plenty more she would happily go at it with, but only a few she can refer to as being in love with. Or maybe it's just infatuation with someone who doesn't really exist...]
I've been trying, but I'm beginning to wonder if I should just cut my losses and just keep an eye out for him from a distance instead. There's no point putting all that effort into earning forgiveness if there's no one watching, so I'd just... start from zero again.
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[Her ears wilt, though she's still smiling thinly.]
Without that option, it's not easy finding people to trust. Someone could seem very appealing on the surface and still turn out to be a terrible partner, after all. I guess it doesn't help that in spite of lashing out like an aggrieved idiot, I'm still kinda-sorta in love with him, I guess...
[Attempting to soften the description of what it actually is. There are lots of people she loves, and plenty more she would happily go at it with, but only a few she can refer to as being in love with. Or maybe it's just infatuation with someone who doesn't really exist...]
I've been trying, but I'm beginning to wonder if I should just cut my losses and just keep an eye out for him from a distance instead. There's no point putting all that effort into earning forgiveness if there's no one watching, so I'd just... start from zero again.